Playing a part

Well, I am smoking weed again AND smoking. I made mistakes and I wish I could go back to what I did. I am forever making mistakes and never being allowed to correct it with the same person. I hate how people give up on me. It's not right, and so I lean over to smoke a blunt because it's the only thing that makes me feel good. I started cleaning my house and realizing how alone I feel.

Nothing in this world is going right. I will never catch a break. Everyone else gets that break but me I am deeper and deeper in this dark world.

When will I get my love back? Will she love me again or no?


I need to see a Psychic. a real one.

Ghetto social worker.

So yes I have Section 8. Well here is the underlying issue. I have this ghetto Section 8 worker who doesn't like to send out paperwork. And I never received a copy of my rental break down. And a copy of my portability package.

why?

because she ain't wanna. negro nappy- headed horse.

The point of the matter is

Manipulation is something people use daily, and some people are better at it than others. I know I am not an idiot. If one day you break your screen and come to my house with a 400.00 phone but somehow could not come up with money for our Florida trip that tells me a lot about you. I realize now he just wants what he wants. It has never been about what I want. I need to get my ____ and once I get it, fuck you, man.

Dipping into my thoughts.

So I get this stupid catalog in the mail yesterday with the hottest items with "pay no money now" options. My credit is looking substantially good and so I am getting offers for low interest credit cards. And so I want to try it out..so I order everything and all of a sudden I get a call the next day saying they needed $29.95 down payment from me in order to send my items. SCAAAM. Fuck you idiots. I know a scam when I see one. Fuck that. I am not giving out my card number. Shit. go shove your make believe pot set up your immigrational wazoo.

And so today my heart was broken for the last and final time.

I don't get it, Matt. Why you treated me this way I really loved you but then again how many other females have you treated this way? I thought we had a connection and you just did this to me for no reason. I tried and I guess you wanted it this way. So fuck you and if you like playing games that's up to you. so I am going to get your girlfriend a bus ticket one way and wish you luck. I will drop it off and then you can live happily ever after. Why would you treat me this a few days before I am supposed to visit

Billy Joel - We Didn't Start The Fire

We didn't start the fire 
It was always burning 
Since the world's been turning 
We didn't start the fire 
No we didn't light it 
But we tried to fight it 

Joseph Stalin, Malenkov, Nasser and Prokofiev 
Rockefeller, Campanella, Communist Bloc 

Roy hn, Juan Peron, Toscanini, Dacron 
Dien Bien Phu falls, "Rock Around the Clock" 

Einstein, James Dean, Brooklyn's got a winning team 
Davy Crockett, Peter Pan, Elvis Presley, Disneyland 

Bardot, Budapest, Alabama, Krushchev 
Princess Grace, "Peyton Place", trouble in the Suez 

[Chorus] 

Little Rock, Pasternak, Mickey Mantle, Kerouac 
Sputnik, Chou En-Lai, "Bridge on the River Kwai" 

Lebanon, Charlse de Gaulle, California baseball 
Starkweather, homicide, children of thalidomide 

Buddy Holly, "Ben Hur", space monkey, Mafia 
Hula hoops, Castro, Edsel is a no-go 

U2, Syngman Rhee, payola and Kennedy 
Chubby Checker, "Psycho", Belgians in the Congo 

[Chorus] 

Hemingway, Eichmann, "Stranger in a Strange Land" 
Dylan, Berlin, Bay of Pigs invasion 

"Lawrence of Arabia", British Beatlemania 
Ole Miss, John Glenn, Liston beats Patterson 

Pope Paul, Malcolm X, British politician sex 
JFK, blown away, what else do I have to say 

[Chorus] 

Birth control, Ho Chi Minh, Richard Nixon back again 
Moonshot, Woodstock, Watergate, punk rock 
Begin, Reagan, Palestine, terror on the airline 
Ayatollah's in Iran, Russians in Afghanistan 

"Wheel of Fortune", Sally Ride, heavy metal, suicide 
Foreign debts, homeless vets, AIDS, crack, Bernie Goetz 
Hypodermics on the shores, China's under martial law 
Rock and roller cola wars, I can't take it anymore 

[Chorus] 

We didn't start the fire 
But when we are gone 
Will it still burn on, and on, and on, and on

Disabling my facebook today

I disabled my facebook because of Matt. He just an asshole straight up and down. I don't need to speak to him anymore I am not interested any longer. Good job. I will cut your fucking throat.