Writing a short blog then off to bed this weekend was a blast! And Thursday will be even better. I have to get up early to help my sister out she is in some conflictive situations and I will not allow it to effect me. So at 31 I am finally getting out and enjoying my life. I allowed five years into a useless marriage that lead me to another man and then divorce. I am sort of in a relationship that keeps putting me in a swirl of confusion. Have you ever read someone's blogs and it didn't make any sense? I did that today and I realize how stupid I've been and liking someone based on a fantasy of what they could be when in actuality they are NOTHING of what you assume. Like loser status. Some guys NEVER have experience in sex because they are too weird or far gone in their head to ever truly experience intimacy. I lied to this guy. I was asked how many guys...more than ten. I am clean, condoms always.. I started sex at 19. And enjoyed it enough to experience with some. And usually one night stands. I have only been in three serious relationships because I choose to. Now, I am with a guy who loves sex and we used to do it all the time, I keep my vagina tight and not loose because this pussy was meant for fucking. Anyway, I don' get it as often so now I'm super tight and looking for good nights of love. So This Thursday I am going this crappy little place called Dubland where it is for 18+ I know a 18 yr old kid who wants sex, he hangs at Dubland I'm thinking of him he is 6 ft blond frizzy hair big blue eyes ...He's an Aquarius and I am willing to give him some Cougar pussy. I am 31, and can teach him a few things. My P is throbbing thinking of it. He texts me some naughty stuff that gets me dildoing myself quite often. I used to believe in love and marriage but that is all a little dream. None of it is real. We all love and hate, so why not be mutual? I need a list of men I can keep with me so whenever they're horny or I am we can hook up for a good night of sex? I love perversion. I want to tell guys I am not a whore but their equal. How do you do that? Control your horniness for one guy? Doesn't it get boring after awhile?
