It appears to be a focus of mine to be moving forward on this escapade. I now know my life is more than a few words. I wanted to move forward and have ideas that may or may not appease others. But now I know some people are not open minded. I moved to Rochester in hopes of having new goals. But no, it turns out I am doing good but I want more ...
I am being the 'creepy stalker'(his words) and have read a lot of his blogs and some are interesting to read but somehow set me in a bad mood because I realize how selfish people are relatively only because they don't see they're doing exactly what everyone else is doing. When you say, "NO NO! I don't want to treat her this way!" Then turn around and here we are ...I'm the one you wouldn't bring home to your mom and dad. I actually could care less since I am 31 and not really interested in um...the circus. I like to watch them...not be IN it.
I was always understanding your situations but somehow your attention is focused on someone else. Like I'm not good enough to be recognized because of my past. I bet I would've really liked you way back then. But it seems like I am not the one you're looking for. I don't know who you're trying to please and why, but not much I can do it about it. You won't email me, text me, call me or even acknowledge my existence the only thing I can read is your past. Nothing current, nothing to make me feel any type of way for you. I guess I am just something for you to remind yourself of what you wanted, but can't have because it doesn't fit into your social normality. Or better yet, I don't fit the marriage criteria of social inept family.
It's so sad, because in the bible it says not to judge others. And to love one another. And you know what? You didn't do that. You judged me. Here I am still standing strong and still interested even though you turned me away for some social yuppie. For someone who is religious you sure show how self absorbed you are.
I am not going to continue torturing myself this way. I will stay with A until I am completely ready to move on and when I am I will find someone who is ten times better than him. And find the one guy who is like me. left handed, outcasted, independent last but not least, open minded.
I am being the 'creepy stalker'(his words) and have read a lot of his blogs and some are interesting to read but somehow set me in a bad mood because I realize how selfish people are relatively only because they don't see they're doing exactly what everyone else is doing. When you say, "NO NO! I don't want to treat her this way!" Then turn around and here we are ...I'm the one you wouldn't bring home to your mom and dad. I actually could care less since I am 31 and not really interested in um...the circus. I like to watch them...not be IN it.
I was always understanding your situations but somehow your attention is focused on someone else. Like I'm not good enough to be recognized because of my past. I bet I would've really liked you way back then. But it seems like I am not the one you're looking for. I don't know who you're trying to please and why, but not much I can do it about it. You won't email me, text me, call me or even acknowledge my existence the only thing I can read is your past. Nothing current, nothing to make me feel any type of way for you. I guess I am just something for you to remind yourself of what you wanted, but can't have because it doesn't fit into your social normality. Or better yet, I don't fit the marriage criteria of social inept family.
It's so sad, because in the bible it says not to judge others. And to love one another. And you know what? You didn't do that. You judged me. Here I am still standing strong and still interested even though you turned me away for some social yuppie. For someone who is religious you sure show how self absorbed you are.
I am not going to continue torturing myself this way. I will stay with A until I am completely ready to move on and when I am I will find someone who is ten times better than him. And find the one guy who is like me. left handed, outcasted, independent last but not least, open minded.
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