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So here I am again, in between classes trying to figure out where I fit in up here in Rochester, NY. It took me 6 years to figure out that I don't belong here but that God had a plan for me and that is to finish school and obtain my education. So I am going to finish up this year then next year one semester in MCC then the rest online. After Fall I won't need to earn anymore credits for my ATB program. I look around the small College and realize how disconnected people are and trying to obtain any type of friendship from people is little to none. I am lonely and very depressed my only connection is my sister and Akin. I try to reach out but people are so stuck on color, its gross. Whites hang out with whites and that's the way it goes. Doesn't matter if you're dirt poor or filthy rich this is the way it is. Very rarely you'll see biracial kids with whites if they're uppity. If you're poor biracial you hang out with blacks. I can't wait to step out from this place I feel a shine of sun coming through and waiting to get away is my best medicine before I commit suicide from boredom and confusion. in my class people love talking with me but outside class I am no one. I feel closed out from people and I don't want that I want to be sociable go to work and feel accepted, but how?